i love this...

i love this figure.
if i met kinda this guy,
i will surely kiss him.

lately i watch gay movies
such boy culture, that black actor is really hot.
hot lips hot body. i also watch "another gay movie"
pretty funny but dont like it so much.
still i guess, "shortbus" is more passionate and hot one!

He said he wants to be a straight!!!

someone said that yes i'm a gay, and i want to be a straight in the future.
yes you can make a determination about this, but i never imagine or never heard about
a gay switch himself to be totally straight! Fat Chance! coz i feel this gay thing is not sickness/illness you can cured it and then disapeared from your memory. Many people believe, in religionally, that about being gay is becoz God cursed you.
this is the way over my head, i dont get it why in this era, people still believe in such a superstitious.



society, culture and all environment aspects emphasized you to be a straight, but...!!! if you can not control yourself from the people, dont judge yourself to be another person. coz it's just bilking yourself. it's deceitful. dont be so cruel to yourself. no matter what you do or wish to be, go to the seminar, psychoanalysis, Psychotherapy or any other places, it's just a lost cause. believe me!

keep your chin up! being gay is not a mistake!
we are also human. human also has a right to be happy. no matter what your gender is.

AND IF YOU CARE ABOUT THIS YOU CAN VISIT THE TYRASHOW
TO PARTICIPATE ON THIS GAY CASE.
you can fill what's been crossed your mind about gay in that website polling.

Happy Valentine day

To-morrow is Saint Valentine's day, All in the morning betime,
And I a maid at your window, To be your Valentine.
Then up he rose, and donn'd his clothes, And dupp'd the chamber-door;
Let in the maid, that out a maid Never departed more.
(William Shakespeare, Hamlet, Act IV, Scene 5)



mostly people around the world celebrate this valentine day it is the traditional day on which lovers express their love for each other by sending Valentine's cards,presenting flowers, or offering confectionery. The day was originally a pagan festival that was renamed after two Early Christian martyrs named Valentine.The day became associated with romantic love in the circle of Geoffrey Chaucer in the High Middle Ages, when the tradition of courtly love flourished.



wah! this is the best moment for most people, i have dinner with my bf in restaurant today. he come to my city just for together with me. go to movie, and hanging around the city. my family knows my bf, but they dont know he is my bf. my parents see my bf as a member of family, they know him as my best friend. sometimes, he drops by to my home when he visits Bandung city. but he stay at hotel.

"For this was on seynt Volantynys day Whan euery bryd comyth there to chese his make"



last time in january of 20, my bf stayed at my home. when we were having dinner
my mom ask me:
"when will u have a gf?"
and i always give pretext to her:
"no one loves me, mom! i'm with this thin body.
who's gonna love a man like me?"
but in my heart: "fat chance! i've been taken for years by a man i love"
:p

but she always keep on asking about this girlfriend thing:
"but you can give it a shot! find a girl you love and the same way she love you too"
"easier said than done mom! dont force me that quick, i haven't found the right girl this time, besides, it's a lost cause. i dont wanna slacking off by this thing. i just wanna focus on my recent job."

(in my heart i just said: "Sure! When pigs fly!" ha ha.
sometimes i just become not sleep a wink becoz of her questiones.
yeah! i'm not ready for girl friend.
i just wanna enjoy my times with my bf right now,
may be if someday i might be change my mind, i will fulfill what's been thinking by her)

and i talk to my bf about this.
i was so stressed out about it, but he talk to me
"keep your chin up, Andy" he said
"you should! it hurts me but i think it is what every parents wish to their children. if you think you are ready for this, just tell me and give me a time."
i was so thrilled, but i can't help myself, i love him so much and he cares me too
"i love you, and i'm not ready for this right now"



he's my best friend also to be
my good brother and my dearest lover.
understanding! open minded!
yeah he's got all of these.
he never told me off or angry with me.
i thank God for sending him to me.



i always remember
the way he talks to me, his voice,
the way he touches me,
the way he hugs me,
the way he kisses me,
the way he holds my stuff and suck me, with his gentle hand
the way he does me! with a smooth motion
i feel his breath in my ear.
and i feel the warm cum comming into my body.





these all are vividly in my mind although he's in faraway city,
but i feel his existance everyday, and when my feeling tells me about him
i just open my cellular and call him to hear his voice.
we meet each other once a week in the weekend.

Herzlich Willkommen in Mein Blog

i've been busy with this computer. it runs slow after i found out my relevantknowledge's blocked when i did defragment.
i dont know wat ist dat? and everything is ok now after i remove it.
my com back to normal speed again.thank goodness for that.

my recent hobby is extracting aloe vera. :p
i like this herb drink. i used to put this aloe vera gel in a juicer or a cheesecloth-lined colander in a bowl, then Process the gel in the juicer or crush it through the strainer into the bowl to get the aloe juice. it's a bit bitter but i mix it with a few amount of honey, then add up to a gallon of water.
Refrigerate immediately. hmmmm yummy and i consume this aloe drink within a few days.
Sometimes i just buy The Forever living product of Aloe juice. There's a lot of good reasons of consuming aloevera
you can click here and it's good for u too.

anyway i found a blog from absoluterik. he made some interesting gay blogs
Restoring love, gay kiss paradise, gay trio love and restoringsex that you must not missed it.

i've collected many hot pics or articles and put them in here.
and what's so special for me is folsom street event.
it's spectacular moment ever! i've never seen anything like this
bisides the gay pride in Brasil.
but unfortunately an accidental insident occured last time there in Brasil.

in the meantime, i didnt include the mrgay2009 info here coz i feel
not interested on that news and da, i also found this guy dawson, from Corbin fisher.
he's so cute. i love to c his face, so i share his pics here with you.

and also, thanks to visit my blog.
here some hot pics:

when this happen...

Im dating someone who likes going to club every weekend,well i wouldn't call myself a party boy per se...but I do club occasionally... sometimes on my own.
So, perhaps I still qualify to be a clubber....
From my perception, clubbing is to socialise, show off & have fun.
I do get a little naughty on the dance floor sometimes, get a little touchy feel-ly and stuff... But I don't think that means anything at all.

I find the whole point of going clubbing is to let your hair down... and lose your inhibitions. (Frankly, I don't get the people who go to clubs, just to stand around.) But so call "loose" behaviour on the dance floor doesn't mean this clubber is available for casual sex.

It is what it is...
"naughty behaviour on the dance floor"
nothing more nothing less.



I have had two indecent proposals thrown at me... but I don't find it difficult at all to refuse them. Why? Because I know what it is to have sex with the guy you love. Casual sex just doesn't cut it.

So can a relationship with a clubber last? Well, I am a human being, I too want love and stability... And I am also actively looking and dating... so for my sake, I certainly hope it does.

At the end of it... it's all about respect and trust. I respect him enough to know my limits and he respect and trusts me to be sensible and faithful

Take him and make him spend time with u

we've been so many years in relation with many guys,
but somehow some persons have
problem of how to attract the guy we like.
especially for some man who inconfident with himself.
but i dont know if this tips will work or not.
but you just might give it a try.



Hit the gym. i know this is a hard decision to go to gym for
some guys, included me. but this not only does it get in great shape,
which attracts other men, but also helps build self esteem. not only a gym,
just running if one doesnt like to go to gym,
this also could make us having a better confident, trust me.
with the confidence, we will make it easier to go out and talk to new and exciting gay men.
coz people dont like fat guy. thanks God i'm not fat.

Dressing. to impress even if we‘re just out of grocery shopping.
It might sound stereotypical to say that gay men want a man who looks good,
but it’s often true. you could try wearing a black tank top with a nice jeans and white shoes. or just look of what other men are wearing to clubs and
try to wear what you think is good to wear or ask for help from your friends.

perfume, if you have already wearing a cool cloth, but also dont forget
this one. the cologne. fragrance makes other man look at you.
what you spray to your cloth sometimes represent your taste in sex, charisma,
also the sensuality of you.
for me i love fragrance kinda Giorgio armani - Acqua di Gio
or KENZO COLOGNE that are all refreshing, aquatic fragrance and masculine scent
and Hugo Perfume [Hugo Boss for Man] also a good aroma:
but some people dont like the smell like Emporio Armani Eau De Toilette Spray
just spray a little to cloth, that makes other feel your presence.

Learn the basics of flirting:



The best way to do this is through trial and error,
trying things out to see what works and what doesn’t.
After you flirt with a few different men,
you’ll be able to see what works for your situation and what attracts men to you.

Pick up some dance moves. You can spend part of the night hiding out
in the corner to see what other people are doing,
as long as you spend the rest of your night on the dance floor.
The better you dance, the more guys will notice you and feel attracted to you.
but do ot exagerating! coz it makes others barf.



Touch as often as possible.
People love to be touched and guys are no exception.
Rubbing your hand across his back,
letting your hand linger during a handshake and
giving a small hug are great ways to show a man you’re interested.

knowledge. take more watch tv especially on what's happening
to the world [news], also all gay news,
besides the sports coverage of course.
most man loves to watch soccer, car and motor racing.

games. make urself more expert on
basket, billiard, skate, soccer, badminton
or any other sports that most favorited in ur place.
for Indonesia, most man love billiard, basket ball, badminton
and soccer of course. i love play soccer with my friends.

that's all, that's what you need to do.
no matter how ugly you are
it is the key to attract other guy

Chart of Acitivities

Burn fat. having plan of getting better look
or get the calories burnt
by doing some sports or exercise.
i will choose run than any exercise.
but how do we know what exercises and activities are
going to give us the biggest bang for the calorie-burn buck?



I have put together a list of various activities to give you an idea of
how each affects your burn. Sitting still (aka at rest),
most people expend roughly 1-2 calories per minute,
depending on your body weight, sex, etc.
I have included both activities that burn a lot of calories,
and also a separate chart that shows activities that don’t burn very many

and also check out these 2 other tables:

Happy New Year

"Happy New Year Everyone! hope it is a good year to begin a new days. May all of the joy and healthy be yours."

i'm homed this morning. and i feel good, did the new year eve in Singapore.
i and my bf stayed in Atrium Singapore Hotel at outram street. it was so beautiful scene from our room. and as i know, in the capital of Indonesia:
Jakarta City has also a big and beautiful hotel "Sahid Jaya Hotel"
right in the middle of city,
also Menara Peninsula Hotel (Peninsula Tower Hotel)
This hotel has great staff, very friendly and eager to help,
also located near to the airport, about 30 minutes taxi ride
(subject to traffic condition), also to the largest upscale shopping mall and
condominium complex in Southeast Asia:

"Taman Anggrek Mall"
(Orchid Garden Mall)



The shopping mall's Southeast Asia's largest shopping mall when opened in 1996.
The mall is nestled within eight residential towers and houses more than 500
specialized stores, spread within six floors covering a retail space of 360,000 square meters.

so if u visit jakarta city, dont forget to stay in these hotels
also to visit the Taman Anggrek Mall (Orchid Garden Mall)
Orchid = Anggrek
Garden/Park = Taman

ok, back to Singapore,
this country is a true melting pot, home to people of Chinese,
Malay and Indian descent, with a significant population of
non-citizen residents (temporary workers and ex-pats)
from countries as diverse as Korea, Japan, the UK, the US, the Philippines, Bangladesh and Indonesia.

There's a vibrant conglomeration of cultures here, with colorful ethnic pockets (remnants of Raffles' segregated urban plan) such as Chinatown, Little India and Arab Street. Singaporeans enjoy a high standard of living, with a plethora of cultural and social advantages.

This country is known for the quality, diversity and abundance of its dining options.­ indeed, Singaporeans embrace the offerings of street vendors' traditional Asian fare as well as upscale restaurants serving refined European cuisine.

Nightlife is rapidly becoming world-class, with numerous establishments grouped along the river at Boat Quay and Clarke Quay. And for its size, Singapore has an amazing number of attractions, including a wide variety of museums, zoos, the world's largest ferris wheel, and even an indoor ski resort, included any facilities for gays such as sauna or spa.
you could c the macho indian man, handsomes there, believe me! and also, for gambler fans, two glamorous casino resorts will be opened in 2009 there.

so you could enjoy everything there
as your money could bring you to that satisfaction!

To the Airport today

i will be in airport at 1 o'clock WIB.
addressing to Kuala lumpur city.
as i mentioned before i will be in Malaysia.
my plan was to celebrate the Chrismas eve there,
was canceled. but still i will be there in Malaysia
for vacation and also to Singapore for New year eve.
so i wont do posting in this blog until new year 1 January.

Merry Christmas

"forgive us our traspasses
as we forgive those who traspassed against us.
give us this day our daily bread"

In celo et in Tera, fiat voluntas tua, GLORIA! ESPIRITUI SANCTO

Merry Christmas everyone.
i'm very busy today for the preparation
on this special day.
i shall go to the Kathedral
in my place for the Misa (prayer)

i and my friends rico, Indra, and jonathan are comming with me
to celebrate this christmas in church[Kathedral].
including my bf, he comes here yesterday to join the Christmas
pray in Kathedral with me and my friends.

we are all in the same way of lifestyle.
rico also got a bf. but the rests is single.
we known indra and jonathan in kathedral.
and rico is my classmate in high school.
but ever since we were graduated from high school, we drifted apart.
and becoz i've got a job that make me be faraway from
my hometown, so i lose all their track.

only this year i call him and also indra and jonathan.
to join the christmas event in kathedral.
this day only for christmas.

thanks Jesus Christ for ur kindness, for your love to us
of these favors such as healthy, prosperous and our job this year
goes well eventually.
and hope all bless also be yours.

"God loves us. God love us with no conditions.
we are all precious in His Eyes"
Glory Divine!
Halleluya!

Duggar family

Michelle Duggar celebrates Mother’s Day in a much bigger way than any of us
mom’s could imagine. She has announced baby eighteen is on the way.
The 41-year old mom [2008], says she’s thrilled the new addition
will join the seven sisters and 10 brothers. For Mother’s Day,
the kids got together to get mom some pearls with matching pearl earrings.
Dad got her a ring.“We’re enjoying them so much and we would love more,
so the lord has seen fit to give us another one and we’re just thankful,”
Duggar said. At 20, the oldest Duggar child is Josh. Jennifer is
the youngest at 9-months. All the children’s names start with
the letter “J” and all are home-schooled.



This is a special image of a big family ever in the world. may be at ancient time, in Main land China. or even in my country, in the country side. there still many family which has many children. but in big cities of most countries in the world they dont want it, included my place Bandung City, and Jakarta - The capital.
'coz it spends much money. But personally, if i could, if i can having marriage with a girl someday. i would also have many children, but not that much. i could be so very stress of taking care children.



but the most stress in family must be my wife. you know why?
it is because she will wonder, wonder of:
"why my sons love to see penis?"
("of course like me" i have to proudly say it to myself) hahaha, just kidding.
i dont know if i can have sex with woman or not? i just dont have desire with woman even if there is a naked woman infront of me. well, ok, let's check out for more pics on this family by click in here

My man's comming out

Declaration.
OMG! this is the fearest thing ever in my life.

i dont know what's my parents' respond if i said
"mom, dad. i'm a gay. i love my boyfriend, and i'm gonna married with him"
what to expect of doing this?
being discriminated from family?
nope, i dont think it is necesarry.
in my life i just live my life
i just do my best of what i will pass through.
and in this movie below, i feel so sorry for that girl.

let's check out:

Honeymoon Travels Pvt Ltd
India Movie-Bollywood

Upcoming Travel, December 2008

Christmast is something special in my life.
besides the religious day, it is also a party day
for me and my friends hang out together.
when i was in high school.
i had to put aside money for this christmas eve.
so i could go camp with my friends.
:D

and this year christmas
i will celebrate christmas in Malaysia, kuala lumpur city.
i and my bf will take the vacation around malaysia and
and pass the new year eve in Singapore.

well i guess, in North America, Mexico city could be
an alternative place to spend your Christmas eve or new year eve.

Shapes makes differences

What a good lookin guys on pictures above.
we could say handsome? hot? cool? comely? fair?
or just call it as "suitable"?
some said it is "pleasing and impressive or dignified appearance"
or might be a elegance

all this words just represent one's feeling or respond
on something or someone he sees as good looking.
when i'm asked by someone if ricky martin is handsome?
i would say yes he is, but other's respond would be not.
it is just conventional truth about outside or appearance.



but on the other hand, what really make me feel or sense
the beauty, handsome, lovely, cute, cool, hot or macho.
that's actually non-other than inner, the inside part.
more mature poeple (not based on age, but wider insight about himself)
is actually handsome.

people would notice man's shape of face
Round, Oval, Square, and Heart.
but i would notice 5 things on man's appearance:

his eyes,

his nose,

lips,

his abdomen,

and face's shape like this:


and the question that crossing our mind sometimes...
why we are not like the face in the picture above?
ha... this is real problem if we ever thinking about this.
and the answer is...
"only God knows"
or may be karma or
briefly Divina obsesión (Divine's will)
and also DNA problem
some people may be feel unfair
but it's what father and mother give us

Devoid of covering

naked could be an expression of
love, a protest, a request, and sensuality.
in particular exposing the bare skin or intimate parts.

Society's response to public nudity varies on the culture, time, location and context of the activities. There are many exceptions and particular circumstances in which nudity is tolerated, accepted or even encouraged in public spaces. Such examples would include nude beaches, within some intentional communities (such as naturist resorts or clubs) and at special events, but definitely not Indonesia! whatever of special events. it is illegal!
so dont show off ur penis at any beach in here. or u go to jail!


Parental nudity is a controversial issue, There are differences of opinion as to whether, and if so to what extent, parents should appear naked in front of their children. i dont care if my mom and daddy are getting naked at home,
when i was a child we were taking bath together
with my mom and daddy, i liked to splattering water to them, it was so fun.

i was notice his public hair, and wonder.
i asked my mom about this, and my mom said
"you're gonna have it in adult age as ur daddy has now"

from my perception, naked is something natural,
i'm naked in my own room sometimes.
my mom said to me
when i was about 9 years old, i refused to get cloth when she was trying to put my school uniform on, i threw it on the floor.
she told me "you will be more handsome with this uniform"
whereupon i get dress whenever i'm out.


i have the though basic instinct to be naked.
i feel freedom and kinda has a closer connection to the universe
to the nature.
may be, i will get naked before i die.
like Santo Francisco (St. Francis) did
before his death on Saturday, October 3, 1226.

hi...

thanks to everyone who visit this page.
i made this blog first of all i dedicate it to my bf in faraway city - bogor.
it takes a lot of time to make everything's fine [this blog],
coz i'm here in bandung city (one of the biggest gay community of indonesia)
besides posting and arrange this blog, i also do my routinity such as my job.
i arrange what's best for my blog. Hopefully, my bf could also enjoy opening this blog.

and about the interior, i convert the previous page into this new look, i'm happy that my bf like it. and hope people who visit my blog also could enjoy this.
my postings are not only about porn and naked things, but also any other stuff that could make us laugh like spoof videos i found on internet, some healthy information, books, movies or any information that i need to know.

and about the visitor, i knew that some of you are not gay

i'm so very sorry for the visitor who are
woman or straight man

who unintentionally led into this blog, may be by searching the information you need on the google searchbox hope you are not offense by this coincidental.

in my spare time, i always open some gay bloggers site. the interesting blogs or websites i visit are such as:
Hotmenchart
(by the vietnamese which always posting hot guys pictures and also hot videos),
tiggah tigz(filipino, he is a cute guy),
Ehirano blog [he post lovely and creative pictures there in his blog],
and any other websites (like Adam Bouska's) i must admitted that my blog is still far distance to reach category as the best blog ever made like theirs!
included the content of postings,
my english is too poor to express my feeling into english.
may be it's still "a long way to go" to speak english fluently.
haha.... i'm still a beginner in english.

and about what i idolize, it's been
the Damon
ex fretmen member.
he's great and perfect idol for me.


and also i admire porn stars like
johnny harden for his perfect body and perfect penis.
The cute/handsome: Jeremy east and cezaro.
i wonder how they maintain their health [i mean fit]
to make his gun keep aroused?
i feel tired after finish the 3rd or 4rd round with my bf.
ha....
but they are paid for the proportional price


like Tim Evanson [gay correspondent] said:
"In gay porn, actors usually make more money than their male hetero porn counter parts. According to statements made by gay porn stars in Dave Kinnick's SORRY I ASKED, the average gay porn star makes about $500-800 per film, whether it's one scene or several. Some gay porn stars, such as Joey Stefano and Ryan Idol and Jeff
Stryker, have claimed to make up to $1,500 per picture due to their star drawing power. Newcomer gay porn star Dave York says that salaries for newbies to gay porn now run around $1,000 per picture, and the Adam Film World Gay Video 1995 Directory says that Ryan Idol commands upwards of $10,000 per movie now"

What really annoys you?

what i'm thinking for several times that bothers me alot.
this is very annoying thing when i have lunch at a restaurant in mall
or any buffet restaurant where crowded are there.
a lot of people have to line up for taking a meat or any other things
but suddenly some teenagers with unguilty feeling just interlard in the front
after i've been lining up for about 10 minutes.
"what the hell is he doin?" i said to myself.
but i cant help.

so... theres my thing. what really annoys you?

Sleep

oh! everytime thinkin of this! really fear of myself. sleep at 2 o'clock in dawn, get up at 7 in the morning. i feel i'm less of sleeping,plus the stress in the job.
i'm getting more easy of tired, uninspired, loss of spirit, less of concentration/focusing, and sometimes could get headache this happened since my new job. i always feel listless at the work time. may be i should
quit from this job with the consequence losing the chance of working in national oil company for the sake of my health.

This is the hard option.
meanwhile i have to choose the best for my future or my health?
I found this article about sleep and i understand now how important
sleeping. i was always ignoring sleeping before. i just dont care about
this thing, as long as i'm happy hanging out with my buds, and doing what i like.

A Glass of Tea

as the time goes by, still live in my memory
the unforgettable moment with my best friend.
besides my bf, i always care and feel that this person also
important in my life.

he's always there for me when i needed something
even the hardest help that may be most people wont do even to his best friend
but he would give a hand to me, like when i needed money, or any other help.
and of course i wont disapointed him in return.
this guy, he, is a faithful person, amaiable, and friendly.

high school time is the best part
coz we were at the same school in bandung city.
he is cute, cheerful person and smart.
he never give up about what is he doin at school,
except the english subject.
he doesnt like english, until now.
he said english bore him, and really hard to understand.
but he's good at math (matematica), physic, finance and accountancy subject.

i always joke him, and he never offense.
sometimes we hang out with other friends
going somewhere like cafe where we could sitting & chatting and
really savor our time alltogether.

but the best part, still feel alive and clearly remember is
when i visited his home.
his house is a small house and just simple house.
i close to his family as they do feel towards me.
we are just like a family.

he always ask me
"andy, i'll make u a glass of iced tea, would u?"
asked him with full of friendly speaking
"sure"
i said to him.

this tea, although it's just a common tea
but u know, when he's offering this to me,
i felt really like at home,
this simply drink, leave a profound meaning to me and to us.

after graduated from high school
he went to the capital, jakarta, for a job
in insurance company then later on he's got a job at international korean company.
meanwhile i'm still stuck in here, bandung.
and he's been in jakarta till now.
but we are always contact each other.
by email or handphone(cellphone)
asking eachother about what's goin on with our life?

once, i asked him about this "tea moment"
i wrote a writing about our gathering in the past time
and the tea moment in my previous blog.
and i copy the message to his email,
he was thrilled by it, and say thanks to me.
i was almost cry about it.
ha ha.... a bit sentimental.

i miss you my friend.
wish a best fortune for ur life.
and success in ur career

Why you are not rich?

yahoo finance providing this tips
that may be could effective to some people.
But just simple fact.
people are not rich, becozzzz:
1. they are prodigal, improvident, lavish [ free and easy ]
2. they spend all their money with their beloved one without resting some.
3. they dont want to understand of what they are doing in their job.
i mean some people do their job just because it is oblidged.
so he loses some chances that could be is the extra income for him.
4. they are too Zen person. man,
too kind is not really kind, and too bad is not really nice
5. they are too fuzzy and fretful
they dont like to do this and that job.
they lose a good chance.
6. they lack of imagination. astray, less of idea.
they can not be a entrepreneur

that's all. people could get rich because they have passion, an ambition
of learning a lot about everything, know how to use the opportunity and
what he has, also the adventurous.
nothing in this world of mankind could get this thing of what we call
"RICH"
beside the passion,ambition,imagination, the depiction of what he will do.
and stay away from everykind of gambling game.

one more thing of what i concern based on what i saw all this time.
beside gambling is drug, and the rest is dirty thing(unafaithful/floozy)
could ruin ur fortune.

most chinese people here[probably, west people likewise], love gambling game.
they bet everything even their house and their wealth.
so some careless people could be a beggar after losing their "rich" tittle
in casino. :)
what a pity person.